i started to think i was bipolar about a year or more ago and just recently read about it. an today i understand it way better. and i think im bipolar. ok i get Like extreme low and highs u no not like normal and stuff.and sometimes i get like both at the same time which is very confusing. sometimes i get depressed and sad and cry 4 no reason and i feel emotionally unstable and i breath hard and its hard to breath an i can’t control my crying an sometimes its like a can’t feel anything at all im so sad and that i hav no future and i can’t do anything about it and it just like y do the work y do anything if its not gonna make a difference and even if i do the work im gonna fail anyway and i hate my self hate the way i look and don’t wanna be seen an think about suicide how to kill myself how it would feel wats the best way the fastest way and i cut myself sometimes allot an when its just so much emotional pain and sadness its like a can’t stop and sometimes i can’t even feel it and im guilty about every single thing about things i did years ago about how for no reason i yell at people or hit people how i don’t do my homework about thinking things i can’t help thinking about kissing my boyfriend about wat i wear about cutting my hair about being mean to people even tho they didn’t treat me right and i had a right to be mean to them i feel guilty for hating my dad so much even tho he miss treats me has hit me threatens me scares me gets kind of sexual with me i have the right to hate him SO but i feel guilty about it i feel guilty about liking girls i feel guilty for eating and even small things i feel guilty about and then i get really hyper and loud and sexual i can’t stay still i run around jump climb things jump off things say lots of stuff say stuff fast and together wen im down im completely out of breath i don’t like to be touched i try to sit and be calm and i just can’t im feel like ima screammm and i just can’t be completely still and its hard for people to talk to me and i get distracted someones like talking to me and my mind keeps wondering on its own to random things i laugh allot sometimes laugh at stupid things people ask if im high or hav add call me crazy. an i do things i feel like doing like one day i might feel like piercing something an ill do it or that i wanna cut my hair ill do it or that i wanna touch some girls boobs ill do it im kind of impulsive and like i get all giggle lots of times i would go on my swing and swing as high and as fast as i can an yell an say ima break itt or jump in the lake ya allot of stuff and i think that’s bipolar do you. at first i thought i was just depressed but that just couldn’t be it so tell me what u think and yeah i no i sound crazy
yes i want attention thats y i try to hide all this stuff an try to be calm an control myself

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